..Going towards the sea bed..

"Two roads lead into the woods, and I took the one less travelled by.. And thats what made all the difference!!!"

One of the most interesting part of life is that it manages to surprise you at every corner. Just when you think that you have everything figured out, you are confronted with somethingor the other. Well it won't be right on my part to complain about it cause this is one aspect of life that ensures that we encounter something different from normal or which puts us out of our comfort zone and tests us. It ensures that life does'nt become monotonous. Just when you think you have it all figured out, it throws a surprise at you!

The ship which I took to sail in the sea of life was yet to hit any rough patch and the journey seemed to be going on pretty smooth. There were those minor hiccups but nothing big enough that my ship could'nt handle. What more could I have possibly asked for?

One morning I woke up and went to the 'deck'. The sun was shinning bright. It was what we call the perfect sailing weather. I was sitting there and enjoying the sea and my wine. I could'nt have asked for anything more. And just then I heard a deafening noise! I was thrown out of my chair. The force was very large. She had hit an iceberg!

A perfect day has just turned into a nightmare. The hit was big and there seemed no way to save her. I could hear the captain saying, "Abandon Ship" but how could I just leave her? We have sailed through the toughest days together, we have sailed through all the rough patches and come out of it strong; and now there she was, bleeding, making her way to the sea bed.

The captain came to me and asked me to get into the boat so that we could leave immediately but I could'nt do that. How could I just leave her? I finally decided to stay aboard. She had been there for me when I needed her, through all my tough times, through the worst phase of my life and she had hardly disappointed me. Now it was my turn.

Life is like a see saw. One moment you could be at the highest point and the other you could hit bottom. The only thing we should remember is that we should never give up. We should stay positive and have faith. If something is bound to happen, it will happen. However the least we could do is to make sure that we don't do something that even destiny decides to change its road; and ofcourse we should not be afraid to take hard decisions cause at times these hard decisions help us in the long run. Every day is a learning experience. I have had some wonderful times and I guess I should be strong enough to accept that I have made loads of mistakes. Some of which I really regret; but then I guess this is life. We can't really do anything about things of past. We just have to deal with it. Though I hope that one day I will be able to correct all my mistakes. I am still a kid who is learning with every passing day; afterall life is all about learning, is'nt it??

...!!!!!.....

I closed my eyes, the time had come. The inevitable was here and there was nothing  I could do about it.

At times like these, your entire life flashed back right in front of your eyes. You tend to see all the good and bad that you have done throughout your life; the opportunities that we missed and the ones that we grabbed; the betrayals, the happy times, the pain, the agony, times when we laughed our heart out, times when everything seemed to be so good and we thought we will always be happy. People who have mattered to us thoroughout also cross our mind; and more interestingly we also think of people who we have hated and maybe at one point wanted to kill. But none of it matters now.

All I can hear is a cry coming from a distance; it keeps calling out to me and it keeps getting louder as time passes. I dont think its possible for me not to notice it and to turn away from it. I am standing here all alone near the window of my small room. Staring at the sky filled with shinning stars. The river flows at some distance, I can hear the sound of forest; but these beauties of nature, which are supposed to make me feel at peace don't seem to be helping.

I am feeling more and more lonely. There is no one other than the bird sitting on my window to listen to my miseries.

I made my self one more drink, the finest scotch and four cubes of ice. I could feel it warming my throat and running down it. 

I had so many friends, so many loved ones; where have they all vanished? Why does it feel as if i am a ghost living between people who can't see me? Why did they all leave? Leaving me behind, all by my self! I guess that is how it is supposed to be. I guess that is what you call 'destiny'!

I picked up my phone and punched in the only number that i could recall, the only person that i had spoken to in ages. The call lasted for just fifteen seconds, the worst fifteen seconds of my life without doubt. 

It only made the cry louder and my shivering hands stoped to tremble as I put the barrel to my head and pulled the trigger.....

!!! The past.. the present and the future..!!!

As time passes, we move on with our lives. Change is the only constant that remains with us throughout! We get more and more involved in our doings and we tend to forget our past, things associated with our past. The only thing that we care about as we move on is future. So much we are into securing our future that we often stop living in present! Its only when time passes and misery strikes us that we realise what we have missed upon!
Its not bad to think about our future but in doing so we shall not forget about our past and our present. Its our past that has made us what we are today. We could have been a totally different person if we had a different past. The events that take place in our lives shape us into the kind of person we are today.
Today the world has become a rat race, and we are just another rat in it. Trying to race and defeat our fellow rats. Well, competition is not a bad thing but unfair competition is. The motive of a competition should not be to harm others but to learn something new.
When we leave school and go into college, we forget the friends we had at school. We hardly care to keep in touch with them, or maybe we do keep in touch with the handful! The people around whom our lives' once revolved are not even cared for now! Ofcourse if we bump into them in a mall or theater we will exchange a pleasent smile or maybe cellphone numbers but thats the end of it. We never even care to call them or message them! We meet new people. They become the centre of our lives. This is only the law of nature. There is nothing wrong with it. We should meet new people, go new places after all life is all about changes otherwise it will be very monotonous.
The only thing that we should keep in our mind while we are out there enjoying ourselves is that yesterday someone was there for us when we needed them and we should not forget that.
Its always good to be in touch with your past. There is no happiness like meeting an old friend after a long time, or talking about your childhood days! Even in saddest of our moods if we meet someone who has known us for long, just talkin to him about old days brings a smile to our face, tears to our eyes!
Its rightly said, "Yesterday is a cancelled cheque; tomorrow is a promissory note; today is the only cash you have - so spend it wisely.", but remember one thing that if we didn't have this cancelled cheque to our name, we couldn't have afforded the promissory note today! So as we go on with our lives, take out sometime to think about what we have left behind! There is no happiness as hearing from an old friend! Go ahead, the world is at your feet. Grab all the opportunities that you can, the world is out there waiting for you to rule it but when you are at it don't forget anything that helped you in being in such a position that your are today.
Well to sum it all up, its always good and necessary to take out sometime and think about what all we have achieved and what all we have left behind.

...A long weekend...

weekends in manipal can get borin... really boring at times.. and the weekend just went by was a long one.. with practically no class to attend on saturday..d weekend started on friday it self:).. and it continued all d way 2 today.. it being a holiday on account of republic day..was it repulblic day 2day?!sorry 2 say bt i dnt remember any1 wishin any1 or i didnt evn c a flag bein hoisted!!:(.. wel none d less its an excuse for us to get a day off so all of us are very happy??:)..ok comin bak 2 weekends.. most of d weekends are those typical kinds.. vry monotonous.. party on saturday nite or go 2 sm bar gt drunk.. and den spnd sunday tryin 2 wash away d hangover of previous nite!!i thought this tym its gonna be no different maybe evn more borin!!aftr all how much can 1 enjoy drinkin??!:s.. most of d ppl had gone off to goa or sm other place.. so v decided 2 stick around in manipal!!.. who wants 2 go 2 goa and c all familiar faces frm manipal??!!;-).. wel d party started saturday nite.. a typical one i mst say.. goin 2 new deetee wid frnds.. gettin drunk.. bt it was fun cause firstly aftr long time all of us were out 2gethr!! nd secondly alcohol s always fun:D:p.. so quiet a few of us gt sloshed.. and had 2 b carried bak.. music was nice nd evn we who had clue abt d 'D' of dance saw ourselves swayin 2 d sounds!!or maybe noise!!.. sunday mornin.. again nothin different.. wakin at ease.. and wonderin wat 2 do!! thanks 2 bollywood which is famous 4 makin n number of movies.. v had one dis weekend which v culd watch!!i must say it was a tough job to wake up all d lazy asses who were snorin away 2 glory!!and den convencin few others 2 go 4 it.. a plan was finally made and v set out on bikes 4 d theater;-) [yes v r in coll nw and v have bikes 2 go on.. dats d bst part;-)].. d line 4 d tickets were long bt who cares!!..so v finally got in aftr waitin 4 sometime..d movie was supposed 2 b a horror one bt thanx 2 us.. v turned it into a comedy 1.. bt ya i mst agree dat v did gt scared in parts!!.. nw dat r weekend had started and v were in d partyin mood there was no point lettin it slip off!! so a dinner plan was made and 2 our delite a frnd agreed 2 treat us!! let me tell u there is nothin like free food and booze!!v ended up goin 2 new deetee again!!only this tym v didnt hav 2 pay 4 anythin;-)..as d 'dinner' progressed.. quiet a few of us lost control of their senses!!.. wel there s nothin like a drunk guy who u cant control.. its like d bull had gone mad and is on d run!!.. anyways.. it was fun.. aftral its only at times dat v gt 2 b lik dis!!i dnt no if it was d alcohol or wat .. v decided 2 hit d disc aftr dat!!d 1st onw v went 2 was empty!!went 2 d 2nd 1..by this tym few were vry high nd had 2 b taken bk 2 blk.. rest of us went in.. wel wat hapnd inside i wuld rather prefer nt 2 write here!!
2day mrnin all of us woke up relaxed.. last day of wat had been so far a long weekend!!no plans as such.. and den all of a sudden it hit few of us dat y nt go 2 turtle bay!! jobless ppl dat v r.. v started convincin evry1.. it was nt an easy task i mst say.. bt den evry1 did agree.. few more bikes were arranged and v set off for d beach!! it was a journey of arnd 50kms!!d bike ride was fun. all of us were pumped up.. clickin pics on r way.. signin.. overtakin each other.. few of us loosin r tshirt on d way;-).. aftr d long bt i must say by far d bst ride of my life v reached turtle bay.. d beach is awesome.. vry clean.. as soon as v reached v jumped into d sea.. hittin each other wid d ball.. sand.. playin arnd..jumpin as if v hav jst won a lottery!!
wen evry1 was tired enough.. v decided 2 go bak.. and as it was..v were feelin hungry 2!!.. d ride bak was full of lot of things.. few accidents avoided..runnin out of petrol!! hunger takin over us combined wid tiredness!.. finally v reached bak.. d only place at wuld giv us food at dat tym was hot n spicy.. so v went dere.. orders were placed.. i guess this was d largest single order dey mst hav evr taken!!! v culd sense dat frm d shock on their face!! evry dish was welcomed wid a loud cheer!!!it was lyk ur fav soccer team has jst scored a goal!!.. aftr stuffin ourselves upto neck d only thing dat v culd thnk off was r beds!! a heavy meal combined wid tiredness is a perfect mixture 4 an awesome sleep..
so here i m on my bed.. writtin this blog wen all my frnds are deep lost in their dreams.. only wakin 2 shoo away d annoyin mosquito!! i mst say dis was perhaps our best weekend here in manipal..!!! i wondere why we dont do anythin like this more often!! aftr all as tym passes by its only d memories dat remains and wen v c d pics v will remember d crazy assse dat v were!!!..
bas yaadein, yadeein reh jati hain!!! ..

..wats it all abt??!!...

wel i remember d last time i wrote smthin on dis blog i was sm1 else!!! wel ppl dont change.. they nvr change.. its only d times dat changes..nd den v adapt or as few say change ourselves accordin 2 d circumstances.. most of the times wen things go wrong for us.. v blame it on time and circumstances!!! wel i guess dats all bullshit.. v shuld stand up and take responsibilty 4 r actions and stuff!!!...
nw if u evr care read dis u ll thnk wat d fck is wrong wid him??!! life is tough.. its unfair 2.. bt then it us who have 2 survive it and face it..nyways.. many a times things are nt as dey appear.. v think v r happy, others think u r happy bt its nt actually lik dat.. for those of u who no abt art of livin.. it says once u find true happiness, u can nvr b sad again!! cause true happiness s so strong dat nothin can take it away!!.. wel so i guess v r still 2 find 1!!!
i have also become a huge fan of murphy's law.. if anytgin can go wrong. it will go wrong at d worst possible time in d worst possible way.. just a few days bak i thought i had it all figured out and den d lighting struck!!!..wat have v made of ourselves?? gt up in d mrnin.. rush 2 classes.. reachin late 4 dem.. takin pride in takin teachers case. wel i wont say its nt fun;-).. den sleepin thru all d lectures!! relieved dat v hav half day.. probably takin a smoke goin bak 2 block and den snorin away 2 glory!!!.. then comes d evnin time.. rushin 2 d bars.. drownin ourselves in vodka.. nd den enjoyin d awesome high v get..!!! at d end of d day.. i pressume atleast sum of us.. stop 2 think.if only 4 a minute is this wat v truly want??oh ya i 4got.. in between dat hectic schedule of ours.. v also try 2 pick up and hit on girls;-).. atleast try 2..hehehe...
at times v try 2 figure out wat r priorities are?!. wat v actually want? bt v end up gettin more confused dan v already were!!..happiness 2 diff ppl have diff meanin.. wel 2 me it means being able 2 laugh and make ppl arnd u laugh.. wen v r bored.. its mostly wid ourselves dat v r bored..
grass is always greener on d other side..!! wen v look at sm1 we think dat person s so hpy.. nt knowin dat mayb he/she s as miserable as us!!!.. so there is only one thing we can do!!!...work hard and party harder!!! enjoy d icecream of life b4 it melts.. life is short so have ur deserts first.. anyways who likes d main course;-).. cheers!!!peace out.. pranav thakur signin off....