At times like these, your entire life flashed back right in front of your eyes. You tend to see all the good and bad that you have done throughout your life; the opportunities that we missed and the ones that we grabbed; the betrayals, the happy times, the pain, the agony, times when we laughed our heart out, times when everything seemed to be so good and we thought we will always be happy. People who have mattered to us thoroughout also cross our mind; and more interestingly we also think of people who we have hated and maybe at one point wanted to kill. But none of it matters now.
All I can hear is a cry coming from a distance; it keeps calling out to me and it keeps getting louder as time passes. I dont think its possible for me not to notice it and to turn away from it. I am standing here all alone near the window of my small room. Staring at the sky filled with shinning stars. The river flows at some distance, I can hear the sound of forest; but these beauties of nature, which are supposed to make me feel at peace don't seem to be helping.
I am feeling more and more lonely. There is no one other than the bird sitting on my window to listen to my miseries.
I made my self one more drink, the finest scotch and four cubes of ice. I could feel it warming my throat and running down it.
I had so many friends, so many loved ones; where have they all vanished? Why does it feel as if i am a ghost living between people who can't see me? Why did they all leave? Leaving me behind, all by my self! I guess that is how it is supposed to be. I guess that is what you call 'destiny'!
I picked up my phone and punched in the only number that i could recall, the only person that i had spoken to in ages. The call lasted for just fifteen seconds, the worst fifteen seconds of my life without doubt.
It only made the cry louder and my shivering hands stoped to tremble as I put the barrel to my head and pulled the trigger.....
